I disconnected Michael’s cell phone today. It’s taken me a long time…the last time he used is phone was November 2008…but I’ve not been able to cut it off…just feeling that it’s just him disappearing…completely emotional reaction but I just couldn’t do it…

…but paying for it was ridiculous (about $50/month)

…and the reaction from me while doing it was sobbing on the phone while speaking to Verizon…

Grief is so strange.


I thought my kids would think I was crazy when they heard I just now disconnected his phone but they were all very empathic and Gina said “awww” and gave me a big hug. It’s still fairly fresh for us, I guess. I did have a great weekend with the kids and grandkids, so I trudge on….